Why should I bother about you!

To almost all the people we first met or those not really close to me

for sure their first impression would be

"hey, you are a happy and cheerful girl ya."

but actually I'm human being

I have my own emotions as well

I can't keep on smiling 

I'm not a laugh or smile machine

I get tired too, don't expect me to give all the responds that you expected

I'm treating people differently according to how you treat me

just because I think smiling on people you first meet is a manner

I just want to be myself

by the time I'm happy then I smile and laugh out loud

I just keep silent and cool if I am really not that okay

不要小题大做, 大惊小怪好吗!

I'm not live in this world to cheer you up 

as long as I happy then it's enough ad la!

Here to uncover all my unhappiness!

What's your aim?

Today,I just spent my weekend by doing nothing.
Sometimes I feel it's too bored but I really do not know what should I do.
I told myself I shouldn't spend my time of being a useless one.
I should study to gain more knowledge.
but I lose to my impatient!
I just want to enjoy my life without worries.
it's sound great right?
My mind keep thinking about other things.
I can't focus on one thing.
Instead of keep on  studying, I always stop in the half way.
I'm really get mad of being like this.
because I couldn't achieve my goal.
This just makes my study path harder. 

Need some motivations to start work  hard.
No more relax time!
It's your time to start fighting for A BETTER LIFE!
SELF-CONTROL please!

Finding a Real me

When I look into  mirror, I always smile.
Sometimes I am wandering, why I smile?
am I really feel happy? or I'm just faking a smile.


I feel so lost. I'm not being myself.
I have forgotten since when I tell people about what I feel and what I think

I start to hide everything to myself
never tell anyone
sometimes I feel I'm alone,
not even have a person to listen to my deepest voice.

I used to be a happy girl before
but I already forgot what's make make change
I become so pessimistic.
Can I find myself back?

No matter what's happened, 
life still goes on.